It’s safe to say that after the year Chrissy Teigen and John Legend have had, they’ll be glad to bid adieu to 2020. Although the couple suffered a devastating loss in October, they were also apparently wrestling with another difficult situation. Teigen stunned fans this weeks after announcing that she is now, “four weeks sober,” and people are wondering – what happened? Here’s what we know about Teigen’s dark autumn and winter, and the hope at the end of 2020.
Chrissy’s Past Struggles with Alcohol
Unfortunately, Teigen has struggled with alcohol in the past. In a 2017 interview with Cosmopolitan, Teigen spoke candidly about her struggles. According to Cosmopolitan, “Before Italy, it was Bali, where they attended a wellness retreat. Teigen wanted to do a reset on her health. ‘I was, point blank, just drinking too much… I got used to being in hair and makeup and having a glass of wine. Then that glass of wine would carry over into me having one before the awards show. And then a bunch at the awards show. And then I felt bad for making kind of an ass of myself to people that I really respected. And that feeling, there’s just nothing like that. You feel horrible. It’s not a good look for me, for John, for anybody.'”
Once she arrived in Bali, Teigen realized it was time for a fresh start. Up until Bali, her life had been a constantly steady exposure to alcohol. As a spokesperson for several alcohol brands, Teigen struggled with being able to say no. Cosmo shares, “She has a history of alcohol abuse in her family, she said, and she’s the type of person who ‘can’t just have one drink.’ She is also taking a number of medications for postpartum depression and anxiety, which ‘alcohol is like the least thing that helps.’ She started to worry about where this was headed.
‘Nobody really brought it up to me,’ Teigen said. ‘They just assumed that it was OK because I always felt OK the next morning. I knew in my heart it wasn’t right. It makes you very short with people. People think it’s cutesy and fun to go on these boozy brunches, but there’s more to it. I’ve never once been like, ‘I’m sure glad I had that boozy brunch!’
…’I used to think it was kind of nutty to have to go totally sober,’ she said, ‘but now I get it. I don’t want to be that person. … I have to fix myself.'”
A Devastating Loss in October
Recovery from alcoholism is a lifelong process. Alcoholics are never, “recovered,” they are always, “in recovery,” because addiction doesn’t just go away no matter how much work you put into healing your brain. Trauma, grief, and stress are always happy to strip away the veneer of control and bring those cravings and struggles back to the forefront.
With Teigen, a devastating loss in October may have been the driving force behind her relapse. In October, Teigen shared on social media that she was having bleeding with the pregnancy she and husband Legend had recently announced. They were 20 weeks along with the lovingly anticipated baby when the worst happened, and Teigen’s next post was of her in the hospital, sharing the tragic loss of their baby.
Teigen shared an image of herself weeping in a hospital bed, with the caption, “We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before. We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough.
We never decide on our babies’ names until the last possible moment after they’re born, just before we leave the hospital. But we, for some reason, had started to call this little guy in my belly Jack. So he will always be Jack to us. Jack worked so hard to be a part of our little family, and he will be, forever.
To our Jack – I’m so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications, that we couldn’t give you the home you needed to survive. We will always love you.
Thank you to everyone who has been sending us positive energy, thoughts and prayers. We feel all of your love and truly appreciate you.
We are so grateful for the life we have, for our wonderful babies Luna and Miles, for all the amazing things we’ve been able to experience. But everyday can’t be full of sunshine. On this darkest of days, we will grieve, we will cry our eyes out. But we will hug and love each other harder and get through it.”
It seems likely that this loss was the catalyst for Teigen’s relapse, but she has remained relatively quiet on social media since then, and now fans can understand why.
Chrissy Announces She’s ‘Four Weeks Sober’
On Tuesday, Teigen shared a silly video of herself on Instagram. In the video, she’s wearing a bathing suit and dancing on what appears to be a yacht. One fan jokingly replied, “I need whatever drugs you’re on!!”
Teigen responded, “4 weeks sober,” with hearts and prayer hand emojis.
Fans were quick to heap praise and love on the beloved social media star. When Teigen announced her loss, it touched a nerve for many families who had experienced similar losses. So feeling empathy for the pain they know Teigen had experienced in the wake of her miscarriage, they were able to appreciate how hard it must have been to relapse and then re-enter recovery.
No details have been shared about what substance Teigen is sober from, or how she’s succeeded at reclaiming sobriety, but it’s fairly safe to assume that it’s alcohol she’s referring to.
Whatever method Teigen used to climb back from the brink, she looks amazing in her video and seems happy and ready to take on the world. Here’s hoping Teigen has a much better 2021!