It’s been more than six months since Demi Lovato and Max Ehrich‘s messy split, and now, the singer is speaking out about it for the first time ever. Yep, she broke her silence on their short-lived engagement during her new documentary, Demi Lovato: Dancing With the Devil, and everyone is pretty shook over what she said about it.

So the new documentary doesn’t actually premiere until March 23, 2021, but some news outlets were able to see it early at the SXSW premiere on Tuesday, March 16. And according to Entertainment Tonight, Lovato doesn’t hold back in it.

What Happened Between Demi Lovato And Max Ehrich?

Max Ehrich and Demi Lovato

For those who forgot, Lovato and Ehrich were first spotted cozying up in March 2020. And a few months later, they shocked the world when they announced that they were engaged!

“I knew I loved you the moment I met you. It was something I can’t describe to anyone who hasn’t experienced it firsthand but luckily you did too… I’ve never felt so unconditionally loved by someone in my life (other than my parents) flaws and all,” Lovato gushed on Instagram at the time. “You never pressure me to be anything other than myself. And you make me want to be the best version of myself. I’m honored to accept your hand in marriage. I love you more than a caption could express but I’m ecstatic to start a family and life with you. I love you forever my baby. My partner. Here’s to our future!”

Although they seemed as happy as could be together, in September 2020, news hit the web that they had broken up. And when the whirlwind romance came to an end, it wasn’t pretty. Get this — the High School Musical 3 star actually took to his Instagram Stories to address the breakup news, and he claimed that he found out that their engagement was over from articles he read online.

“Imagine finding out… the status of your relationship through a tabloid,” he wrote. “While you’re in the middle of filming a biopic movie about a pastor in a Christian church whose intention of the film is to help people.”

What Does She Say About It In The New Documentary?

Lovato first claimed in the documentary that she was doing OK following their split.

“I’m really sad that things ended the way that they did,” she said. “The good news is, I haven’t picked up any hard drugs or anything like that. I’m hanging in there. It’s just s***ty.”

But later, she admitted that it was effecting her more than she had let on.

“The video I made earlier wasn’t an accurate representation of what I’m going through. So I thought this whole time that I didn’t miss him. I just miss the person that I started quarantining with. And I don’t know how to give my heart to someone after this,” the former Disney star added in a different clip. “Honestly, what happened? I think I rushed into something that I thought was what I was supposed to do. I realized as time went on that I didn’t actually know the person that I was engaged to.”

Lovato explained to her friends that starting a relationship during the coronavirus quarantine didn’t help.

“It’s just, like, of course that accelerated. I didn’t even have my best friends to hang out with in quarantine,” she explained. “The hardest part of the breakup was mourning the person I thought he was.”

As for Ehrich’s claims that he was blindsided by their breakup, Lovato said, “I mean, I was just as shocked as the rest of the world at some of the things that were said and done.”

And according to the Camp Rock alum, she learned a lot about herself from their relationship.

“I feel like I’m actually too queer to marry a man in my life right now,” she concluded. “I’m not willing to put a label on it right this second, and I think I will get there, but there’s a lot of things that I have to do for myself first. I want to allow myself the ability to live my life in the most authentic form possible.”

What Else Will We See In The Documentary?

Demi Lovato Singing

According to a press release, the “Sober” songstress will “open up about every aspect that led to her nearly-fatal overdose in 2018, and her awakenings in the aftermath as viewers are granted unprecedented access to the superstar’s personal and musical journey over the past three years, including footage from when the initial production for this project began during Lovato’s 2018 Tell Me You Love Me World Tour.”

“It’s been two years since I came face-to-face with the darkest point in my life, and now I’m ready to share my story with the world,” she said in the press release. “For the first time, you’ll be able to see my chronicle of struggle and ongoing healing from my point of view. I’m grateful that I was able to take this journey to face my past head-on and finally share it with the world.”

In a preview for the doc, the brunette beauty could be seen saying, “My doctors said that I had 5 to 10 more minutes [to live]. I’ve had a lot of lives, like a cat. I’m on my ninth life.”

She said she suffered from three strokes and a heart attack afterwards, which left her with brain damage.

“I don’t drive a car because I have blind spots in my vision,” Lovato explained to reporters while discussing the documentary. “For a long time, I had a really hard time reading. It was a big deal when I was able to read a book, which was like two months later, because my vision was so blurry.”

Fans we so worried when news hit the web that the actress had been rushed to the hospital July 24, 2018, after she suffered from an apparent drug overdose and was found unconscious inside her Hollywood Hills home. At the time, the Los Angeles Fire Department confirmed to CNN that they received a call at 11:22 A.M. that day for a medical emergency and transported a 25-year-old woman to a hospital. Then, a senior law enforcement official told the outlet that Lovato was at Cedars-Sinai Medical Center in Los Angeles, where she was stable, conscious and breathing. After the scary incident, Lovato checked herself into rehab, where she stayed for three months.

During the documentary, she also opened up about being raped when she was 15 years old. 

“When I was a teenager … I lost my virginity in a rape,” she said, adding that her assaulter was never punished for his actions even after she reported the incident. “My #MeToo story is me telling somebody that someone did this to me, and they never got in trouble for it. They never got taken out of the movie they were in. There’s the tea.”

She even implied that it was someone who worked alongside her during her Disney days.

“We were hooking up, but I said, ‘This isn’t going any farther.’ That didn’t matter to them, they did it anyways. I internalized it — I told myself it was my fault because I still went in the room with him,” she continued. “I was part of the Disney crowd that publicly said they were waiting until marriage. I didn’t have that romantic first time with anybody — that was not it for me.”

Lovato also revealed that on the night of her overdose, she was sexually assaulted by her drug dealer.

“When they found me, I was naked and I was blue. I was literally left for dead after he took advantage of me,” she explained during the documentary. “When I woke up in the hospital, they asked me if I’d had consensual sex. There was one flash I had of him on top of me. I saw that flash and said, ‘Yes.’ It wasn’t until a month after my overdose until I realized, ‘You weren’t in any state of mind to make a consensual decision.'”

What Has Demi Lovato Previously Said About Her Addiction?

Over the years, she has been pretty open about her struggles with addiction, mental health issues and eating disorders.

“I was going to the airport and I had a Sprite bottle just filled with vodka. It was just 9 in the morning, and I was throwing up in the car, and this was just to get on a plane to go back to L.A. to the sober living house that I was staying at,” Lovato recalled in 2013 about when she was at her worst. “I had all the help in the world, but I didn’t want it.”

“I’d be lying if I said there weren’t days where I just want to stay in bed all day because I’m ashamed of my body,” she also told People Magazine. “It’s a struggle I’ll probably have to deal with for the rest of my life. But I have so much life to live; I don’t want to waste it.”

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